SAN FRANCISCO (AP) — The young woman who was sexually assaulted by Brock Turner almost didn’t go out the night of the rape.
She had planned to stay home and read and watch television while her younger sister attended a nearby party, but at the last minute she decided to go that Saturday night in January 2015.
While the 21-year-old Turner who was released Friday is expected to return to Ohio to live with his parents, the woman at the center of the case remains anonymous, but her letter describing the aftermath will no doubt continue to resonate.
“I made silly faces, let my guard down, and drank liquor too fast not factoring in that my tolerance had significantly lowered since college,” the woman wrote in the letter to Turner and Judge Aaron Persky that she read in the courtroom during the sentencing.
“The next thing I remember I was in a gurney in a hallway. I had dried blood and bandages on the backs of my hands and elbow. I thought maybe I had fallen and was in an admin office on campus” she said.
One thing is certain: even if she had stayed in that night, the rape would have occurred. It just would have been someone else, she said.
Turner has admitted to wanting to hook up with someone.
“I was the wounded antelope of the herd, completely alone and vulnerable, physically unable to fend for myself, and he chose me. Sometimes I think, if I hadn’t gone, then this never would’ve happened. But then I realized, it would have happened, just to somebody else,” she said in the letter.
Two graduate students saw Turner assaulting a partially clothed woman behind a trash bin and interrupted the attack. Turner tried to flee, but the students tackled and pinned him down until police arrived.
A jury in March found Turner guilty of three felony sexual assault counts. He served three months of a six-month sentence.
In her statement, the woman described how the attack left her emotionally scarred.
“My independence, natural joy, gentleness, and steady lifestyle I had been enjoying became distorted beyond recognition. I became closed off, angry, self-deprecating, tired, irritable, empty,” she said.
The woman, who was not a student, told investigators she drank about four shot glasses of whisky before going to the fraternity party, and then drank vodka there. The next thing she said she remembered was waking up at a hospital in San Jose, where a deputy told her she may have been a victim of sexual assault.
“I stood there examining my body beneath the stream of water and decided, I don’t want my body anymore. I was terrified of it,” she said. “I wanted to take off my body like a jacket and leave it at the hospital with everything else.”